Ups, Down's and a comfy spot

Hi my Baby Boy.

Yesterday felt like I'd just realized you wern't here all over again.
I miss you so much. I felt a combination of raw terror, anger, and pain that you wern't here, mixed with a healthy dose of complete emptyness. It was a very scary place for me to be. I could only curl up and cry.
I did find a place to curl up in though. Right in the corner of the room, beside your dresser. There I could just let it all out and scream and cry. Just when I thought there couldn't be a tear left, a new wave would crash into me, and it would come tearing out of me again.
And then, your Daddy came home. I felt like I'd been saved. He held me up.
And today, he got me up, and I went into work. I had an Ok day. I was exhausted. My stomach still hurts I miss you so much. But I know you would want to see me smile, so I will keep on going on.
I love you to the Moon and Back Baby Boy...
Love Momma