Letter's to Jack

This Blog will be made up of letter's writen to our son Jack , who even though he is not with us physically ,he will always be in hearts. If people would like to make a donation in Jack's name, please make it to The Hospital for Sick Children. Thank You

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Satuday Afternoons

Hi My Baby Boy,

Daddy and I have had quite the day today. I've been focusing on what Deb talked about, how before I had you, Daddy and I were a couple, and I should look at that again, that we are still a couple. first and foremost. That is never going to make me forget you for a second, but Deb is right. I am so very thankfull that Joe and I are together and I know you would want us to stay happily together (even when I drive Daddy crazy because the t/v is too loud, or I make a mess making ricekrispie squares, and he makes me mad because he teases me so much we both get so goofy that all we can do is laugh)

Daddy and I have spent the whole afternoon watching movies curled up on the couch, just enjoying being together... It is a perfect afternoon...

At the farmers market today I got this doll because it made me smile. The card says "A fearless band of teeny tiny helpers, aiding and abetting happiness one itty bitty detail at a time" This doll is one of the Fearless Band, and it is so unique, ugly some may think, but even more cool to me because of it (I know you'd get it, you're my boy) So here is a picture for all to see. I'm on a quest for a perfect name... open to any ideas you may send (or anyone else out there)

I love you to the moon and back Mr. Twinkle Toes, every bit as much as I love your Daddy...
Love Momma

Friday, July 21, 2006

Moving Around

Hi Mr. Twinkle Toes, I've been having a rough time this month... Lots of things moving around on me. Going back to work, meeting Doctors, on and on... I've been tired. The one thing though that keeps me going is wanting to get better to keep on living and loving your Daddy. He is everything to me. I'll never stop missing you and loving you.
Love Momma

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Just Thinking

Hi Baby Boy, Its so very late, and I can't sleep. Daddy would say its because I always think to much, and he's right... I was reading a blog from Chayna, and she has had the most amazing adventure, it sounds like a dream, and it is her dream come true. My dream was to have you, and even though its not the way its supposed to be now, I did have you, I got to see you open your eyes to look at me and Daddy, and that moment was my dream come true. All the pain and sadness I have now, I wouldn't trade for a second if it means I wouldn't have had you. I love you, I loved having you in my arms, I loved seeing you in your Daddy's arms, and I loved carrying you and feeling you in my belly. I know you remember how hard I laughed the first time you kicked so hard I saw my shirt move... and when you kicked my belly every morning when Daddy woke me up for work... I treasure every moment of you Mr. Twinkle Toes.
Love Momma
P.s we should both get some sleep now Mr. I've got to work in the morning!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Good Morning Sunshine

Hello Baby Boy, Did you have Sweet Dreams last night? Daddy and I spent a good while at the after hours clinic to get a note, as I'm being put back to work on my modified schedule, Monday to Friday 9 - 1. I tried the full day thing, it didn't go so well did it? I think this is a good idea. The sun is shining bright, and I slept better last night. My head and neck still hurt, but don't you worry, the doctor says its a physical reaction to stress, and to see if work will cover massage therapy. I could go for that.
Off to work in a few minutes for me. I love you so much Baby Boy. To the moon and back
Love Momma

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Scenic Routes

Hi Baby Boy. I sure hit a good pot hole last night didn't I? Went flying good and landed flat on my face. Its taken the better part of all night and morning to pick myself up again. Even now I'm not sure I'm feeling so good. I miss you so much, I can't seem to figure out how to carry on happily again. I do know that I sure have a lot to be happy about. I did everything right to care for you and love you in my belly, and Daddy and I loved you the best we knew how while you were in our arms (because I know you are still with us in our hearts) and I sure love that Daddy of yours. He is the best thing in my life. Thank you for sending me that terrific storm last night. Like Daddy said, it was probebly you telling me to get up, its Ok to carry on, and I sure am trying Baby Boy, I just tend to take the scenic routes, and trip a lot along the way. But I'm not giving up, not by a long shot.
I love you to the moon and back.
Love Momma