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Good Night My Baby Boy. Daddy made sure I had a good day, I enjoyed being married today, and am so thankful for your Daddy. I like being married to him. I wish you could have been here, I know you would have had your hands in the cake, you are your Daddys Boy. I miss you. I love you to the moon and back. Thank you to your Daddy. We'll have a cake next year Ok?
Love Momma

Happy Birthday Momma

Well ya beat me to it :)

Happy birthday to my beautiful wife

I know this year isn't exactly the Birthday that you pictured but we can just take it easy and spend the day together and enjoy being married. I know Jack is sitting their wishing you had a birthday cake so he could help blow out the candles (and get it all over his face too).

Love you with all my heart and soul

Joe

xoxoxoxoxoxo

P.S.

Here are a couple of pictures of us when we went out to your spot this morning Buddy. It was so nice out there, the wind was blowing and so was your Momma, she was blowing bubbles.

Love ya Buddy

Dad

Happy Birthday

Hi Mr. Twinkle Toes,
Its so late, I hope you're tucked in on a warm fluffy cloud dreaming sweetly. Its my birthday now. Its after midnight, I'm officially 31 years old. This time last year you were an appleseed in my belly, and I dreamt that this year for my birthday Daddy would bring you into bed with flowers for me, and we'd stay in bed and snuggle. But you're not here, and that wish can't come true, and I'm sad, so I don't want to go to sleep. I miss you so much Baby Boy, I think after a good breakfast, Daddy and I are going on a walk to your spot and I'll bring the bubbles and dandylion fluffies. I love you to the moon and back.
Love Momma

Make a Wish

Hi Baby Boy, after being so adament that I didn't want a birthday this year, I've decided that I do want something. I want to be happy and healthy. Not only for myself, but especially for your Daddy, and for you. When you had to leave us, I didn't get to promise you anything, and on my birthday you won't be here to help me blow out the candles and make a wish, so I'm going to do both now. (I can't tell you my wish or it won't come true) but I can tell you my promises. I promise you Baby Boy, to always love your Daddy, and to love you. I promise to start eating healthier and exercising regularly again. I know that you'd want to see me be a kick ass Momma, just like I would have been if you were still here. So I'm going to do that for you. Instead of getting a pop in the morning, I'm going to treat myself to a blackberry tea. Yummy. I know you'll be the good angel on my sholder helping me to make the right choices. I love you to the moon and back Mr. Twinkle Toes, I'll do a dance for you on my birthday.
Love Momma

Robin in the Rain

Hi Baby Boy, I hope you are having a good day. Thank you for the beautiful dark skies this morning, you know thats Daddy's kind of day. When I got home from work I took off my socks and shoes and splashed in the puddles for you. Its still raining a bit, maybe thats you joining me!
I love you Mr. Twinkle Toes
Love Momma

One Day

Good Morning Baby Boy. This morning I talked to Deb, a wonderful counsellor who is going to help me some more. We got talking about things to do, how to help me be healthier and happier again. I know that you would want to see me happy, and dancing again. We talked about how putting your clothes and toys away isn't the same as putting you away, because you will always be in my heart and soul. Your Daddy and I will do that together, go through all your baby clothes and fold them neatly in a basket to keep with your toys and books. We will also have to face taking down your crib and folding your blankets. I'm not ready to that yet... One day, but not today.
I love you Baby Boy
Love Momma

Always with us

Hi my Baby Boy. Today was such a special day, not only for the beautiful walk, but it is one year ago today I woke up and found out I was pregnant with you. I loved you to the moon and back from that moment on. This poem by Monique Blackburn sums it up.
My Angel.
I long to see you, touch you, hold you in my arms. I just long to be enveloped by your charms. Yet this will never happen while I'm here, for you have gone away my dear.
And even though your far away, I think of you with each passing day. In my heart I know that your all right, because the stars shine bright at night.
And when I look up to the sky, I still often stop and wonder why. Why was it that you had to go? This is what I want to know.
And when the awnser comes to me, you are the one that I shall see. You will show me where you've been, and everything you've done and seen.

I know you're always with us. I love you Mr. Twinkle Toes. I miss you.
Love Momma

The PBSO Charity Walk

Hi Buddy

As you saw today your Momma and I and your Grandpa and Grandma W and your Uncle Al and Aunt Sarah and your cousins Nolan and Aiden all went on a beautiful walk at the Mono Cliffs provincial park today, it was the John Dominic Kan-Hodgson Memorial Walk in support of PBSO.

We got there nice and early(I know you and I are so much alike) and the weather was perfect, it wasn't hot at all. The first part of the walk, up the really big hill and super steep stairs were pretty hard but it was worth it, the rest of the walk was amazing.

Here are some pictures of the walk:

I even made up t-shirts for your Momma and me:

They were pretty cool looking.

We had alot of fun, and the only thing missing was you Buddy, but I know that you were there in spirit.I'm pretty sure your Momma will also right something about the day so I'll end it at, I love ya Buddy

Dad