Putting your crib away

Hi Jack

Today was a pretty hard day for me. I decided to put your crib away in the storage room. I'm sorry buddy, when I first assembled it for you I thought the next time I would be taking it down would be when you were to big for it and ready for a "Big Boy" bed, I was wrong. I know that was you giving us the thundershower just as I was about to take it apart, I didn't know if you were trying to say to me please don't take it down, or you were saying it's alright Dad you can take it down, your Momma phoned about that time and she says it was most likely the latter.

I got thinking today, if there was one thing I could do it would be to have you here with us and have you call me Dad, that's the one thing that really hurts.

Your Momma got down to Toronto O.K. today and she had a good meeting with the doctor.

I should go and have my dinner

Love ya Bud

Dad

Baby Showers

Hi Mr. Twinkle Toes, I hope you're dancing away in a water sprinkler keeping cool today.
I had such a nice suprise... Heather invited me to Colleen's baby shower this Sunday. I was very touched that she called me to invite me personally and to talk rather than just put a card in the mail given everything. I told her I was nervous, goofy thoughts that maybe people would think I was bringing to much saddness and I shouldn't be there, but Heather said that eveyone is really hoping that I'll be able to make it as they all miss me and want me there, especially Colleen. It meant so much that Heather said that I am still all of thier friend, and they are not going to stop inviting me to join in celebrations, even if it is too difficult for me to be there, they understand, but are not going to make any assumptions, they'll keep putting out the invitations. I am planning on going. Colleen is my friend, and I am happy for her. Even if I only stay a short while. I love you Baby Boy. I wish you could have come home to see all of the presents for you that we have. Maybe you come in the night and play away...
Love Momma

Poems

Hi Baby Boy, so many people sure do love your tattoo, and what it means, so I thought I would share the poem that inspired the idea...

Grow little flower, reach for the light, Your sweet little spirit forever will bloom.
Glow little star, tucked into the heaven's, cradled with care in the curve of the moon.
Blow little leaf, to a beautiful someplace, safe in the sheltering arms of a breeze.
Know little one, you'll always be with us, forever held close in our love's memories.

I love you Mr. Twinkle Toes.
Love, Momma

For My Baby Boy

Well I know by now, you and everyone has seen my new tattoo, so what do you think of your crazy Momma?
There are so many meanings in such a small symbol... The leaf is drawn from an Ash Tree, which is your Nature sprirt, and represents connections between 2 worlds and always comming back to yourself. The colour green (yes, for the obvious its a leaf) also because it is the colour of re-birth and growth, it is placed on my arm, wrist in particular to remind me to always embrace life, and instead of getting a plain old stem, It is a letter "J" I figured Mr. Twinkle Toes would be too long. What a very emotional powerful afternoon. As Daddy and I were leaving, there was a big rainbow over the lake. I have no doubt you were sliding down it saying Hi Momma. Did you hear me say " I love you Baby Boy"? I feel good having this for you. Like I can let go a little more, and know that you will still always be with me.
I love you to the moon and back.
Love Momma

The Tattoo

Well Karen got her new Tattoo Today! I must say that it's amazing, for something so tiny it gives off alot of energy. All it took was 15 minutes but it was so worth it just for the look on Karen's face. I'm sure Karen will post her own version of the afternoon but I just wanted to get a pic of it up so everyone could see.

Were Back

Wow! That was freakin' me out, I don't know what happened but everything except for the pic was gone. Thanks to the good people on the Blogger Help group all I had to do was republish the entire Blog and it's all fixed up :)

14 hours...

Hi Mr. Twinkle Toes,
Its so late, and again I can't sleep. Only 14 hours to go and I'll be getting my little leaf tattoo for you. I am so excited, Grandma W is comming up to be with me (and you know how insane that is for Grandma W to do) Grandpa W is still grrrring over it, and Uncle Al is shaking his head while Auntie Sarah is cheering me on... Daddy of course is happy for me... he knows how much this means to me. There will be lots of pictues to show tomorrow night. Sweet Dreams Baby Boy, I know you'll be with me tomorrow.
I love you, to the moon and back.
Love Momma