1st Snowfall of the year

Hi Buddy

Dad here. Well as you've probably already seen tonight we had our 1st snowfall for the season.

It was kinda fun because it's Champs 1st snow, but after we settled down a bit I realized this would have been your 1st snowfall. I wanted so much to take you for walks in the snow, pull you on a sleigh, and build a snowman. I know that your probably out there right now getting all wet and makin' snow angels.

Love ya Buddy

Dad

Ups and Downs

Hi Baby Boy,
I was sure upset when I wrote last, and earlier today with my own longwindingroad letters... but I'm feeling better.
I know I didn't fail you, not when you were born, not when you left, and not the other day.
I just look at the picture of you in my arms, and I try to remember how I felt holding you, and I can't. I still don't know where you've gone. I suppose I'm not ment to know right now, but I wish I knew. I just want to know if you are happy, and warm, and snuggly. Is someone reading stories to you, and singing to you? Put in a request for Prince "raspberry beret" its my favourite song. I'd have sung it to you all the time.
I love you, to the moon and back Mr. Twinkle Toes
Love Momma

I'm sorry

My Baby Boy, The other day I saw a man smoking in his car. All the windows were rolled up because it was raining, and there was a baby in the back seat.
I was so angry. I was so heart broken, and sick. I wanted to bang on his window and yell at him, show him your picture and ask him what right in hell he has to do that with a baby in the car when I have never done anything like that, and I don't have you.
But I couldn't move. I just stood there and started crying. I should have said something. I should have somehow avenged you Baby Boy, but I didn't. And I feel like I've failed you all over again.
I'm so sorry.
Momma