Potty mouth-Part 2

Hi Buddy

I know that you watch your Momma play the video game "Kid Icarus" and i'm always tellin' you to cover your ears when she's playing . Your Momma is trying so hard right now to feel better, and I know that she' doing the best that she can. I sure do love that Momma of yours.

Good night Buddy

Dad

Potty Mouth

Hi Baby Boy,
So your Daddy and I just finished watching the show Soprano's, and I don't know what is more fun, the show, or your Daddy after the show. He thinks he's Tony Soprano himself doesn't he... I'm sure you're laughing just as much as I am. I love your Daddy so much.
Good Night Baby Boy, I love you to the moon and back
Love Momma

Ha Ha Ha Ha

Hi Baby Boy,
I keep thinking tonight that the first time you opened your eyes to see me, who knows what you'd have thought... I had a good few doses of medication (since just having had major surgery and all) hadn't showered in a couple of days and was wearing monkey pajama pants (yes those are monkeys on my pants) Oh yea, and my winter boots without socks.
I guess the point of this is how funny I must have looked to you, and now here is my picture for the world to see... but it doesn't matter does it, since that moment I had you in my arms, and I looked like one proud Momma, monkey pants and all.
I love you Baby Boy
Love Momma

Too Little Time

Hi Jack, Dad here

I guess I had kinda a rough day today. I was at work and I just got to thinking about the day you were born and the day that you left us. It was just so fast, everything went by so damm fast I don't know if I got to say everything that I wanted to say to you. I think back about standing beside you and holding your little hand, or playing with your little toes, you were such a big boy, much bigger than the other babies in your room, you had hair, it had some red mixed in (Just like your Momma's) , you were such a beautiful baby, you were perfect. I guess I just wanted one more minute to hold you, or touch your little hand, or just to rub my thumb against your forhead. I see these people with their babies and I get so mad, why can't we have you! you were here, you were real, you were our little boy, I just want to turn back time and fight more for you, mabey there was something else I could have done or said, but mabey not. I really hope someday I can remember more about the days that you lived.
Thanks for looking over me buddy:)

Love

Dad
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Speed Bumps

Hi Baby Boy,
For a while there I thought, and I was doing Ok, but it seems I've tripped over a few unseen speed bumps. I knew there would be some, they just snuck up on me and caught me (I guess thats what they are supposed to do) I've had a lot of trouble having the energy this week to exercise and eat as healthily as I should. I want so much for you to be proud of me, but I feel like I havn't been doing much good this week. I need to be more patient with myself. Nothing wrong with having a rest after a fall I suppose, as long as I don't lay down and stay there unseen. I'm just so tired this week. Tomorrow is the support group meeting. I feel better after that, I'm sure its just what I need to pick myself back up agian. Daddy said it best. The three of us will continue to grow, with you in our hearts. I just miss you so much Mr. Twinkle Toes. I'll do a dance for you, I got the new Chili Peppers cd and its good. How does that sound?
I love you to the moon and back
Love, Momma

Love today

Hi My Baby Boy
Your Daddy said it all didn't he... You were in my heart today thats for sure (although I wish you could have been in my arms, I missed you so much) Thank you to your Daddy, I had a great day. I smiled. I love you so much Mr. Twinkle Toes, today I had a Happy Momma's Day.
I love you to the moon and back
Love Momma

I saw your Momma Smile Today

Hey Buddy

As you know today is Mother's Day and your Momma is feeling pretty sad that your not here to celebrate it with us (I'm also feeling kinda down), but I wanted to get your Momma out and have a fun day. We got up and got some breakfast and just drove. We went all over the place, the one place we stopped at we saw this really big bird called a crane, it was beautiful, did you see it?. Here are some pictures from our little day trip.

Thinking of you always Buddy

Love Dad