Jack's finally enjoying the Sun

Hey Buddy
Earlier today I got an idea in my head and tonight after supper I decided to bring up with your Momma and see what she thought. It was such a beautiful day out today and as you already know (I know you have been listening to us) your Momma and I were wanting to take you (Your ashes) out to a special place and sit and talk to you about it (The place) and then see if you liked it and then let you hang out there and experience the sun and rain and trees and rocks, everything that nature has to offer. Your Momma said that was a great idea, so we hopped in the car (Yes we were careful) and drove out to a beautiful place, out at the park were the Mariposa Folk Festival is held every year. We walked along, then we came upon the spot that we both knew would be perfect, the sun was shining exactly at the point we you were released. I took some of you (I know that sounds weird buddy but that's what I did) in my hand and I talked a little about you and how much I loved you and how special you were (because you were) and then I just tossed you into the water,then you Momma blew into the wind a dandelion (Actually when it's all white and fluffy it's called a dandelion clock)and it was beautiful, you shone in the sunlight and I knew that you were going to have a good time there. Then it was your Mommas turn, she took some of you in the palm of her hand and said how much she loved you and also how special you were and that she hoped you would dance in the water and sunlight, because as you already know your her Mr.Twinkle Toes, then she tossed you into the water and sunlight, then she blew the other 2 dandelion clock's and made a wish (I didn't ask what she wished and she didn't tell me, I think mabey it was between a Mother and her Son). We then just stood there and looked out into the water and talked about you and how much better we both felt knowing that you were outside enjoying the sun. I took a picture of the place were you play so everyone knows what it looks like. You are the most special guy in the whole wide world, and both your Momma and I hope that one day we can take your little brother or sister out there and they can see were there big brother Jack hangs out.

Love you forever Buddy

Dad

Keep your feet dry

Hey Buddy

Dad here

Just wondering how you are doing today? I'm O.K., had to work today, busy but not to bad. I'm trying to cut the junk out of my diet, feeling better, been able to sleep better. I wish your Momma could sleep better, I guess with time.
It was a nice day out today, did you get a chance to enjoy the day? It's suppose to rain the next few days, so make sure to keep your feet dry.
Your uncle Paul called tonight to say it looks like they will finally be into their house this weekend! Yeah!! So I guees I'll go out and give him a hand with things.

Well it's getting late

Love ya Jack

Dad

A new friend

Good Morning Baby Boy. I'm extra sad today. Grandma W's best friend Ann passed away last night. She is now an angel just like you. Maybe you've already met her. I know she'd find you and give you lots of big huggs for me and Daddy. She met you when you were in my belly. She made me turn around and around to show off how big I was, and she laughed and said she'd never seen me look so beautiful. Ann is beautiful, she is at peace now like you baby boy.
I love you to the moon and back
Love Momma

The start of another week

Morning Buddy

Well it's the start of another week(Yesterday doesn't count because it was a holiday). Got your Momma up early because it's so sunny out and I know she wouldn't want to miss it. I have to work in a couple of hours :(. I think about you eveyday, good thoughts. I really want to change my life for the good, I want to start living life, I want to live it for you, because you didn't get a chance to and I get a chance to live everyday and I seem to waste it (Watching the same old TV shows, sitting at the computer, going to the same old job).
Have a good day Buddy

Love your DAD

I Want You Back

Hi Baby Boy,
I sure am missing you tonight. I miss you everynight. I know that you can't be with us again, but it really hurts, I want you back. I don't know how to be Ok with the fact that you're not here, I don't know if I'll ever be. I have to find something symbolic to do to help me let go of holding onto you so tightly. The last thing I want is for your spirit to be stuck here just because I can't let go. I want to know that you can pass on in peace, but how can I know for sure if you have? Please send me or your Daddy a sign so I'll know.
I love you to the moon and back. All the dandylion fluffies flying around are my kisses to you.
Love Momma