Letter's to Jack

This Blog will be made up of letter's writen to our son Jack , who even though he is not with us physically ,he will always be in hearts. If people would like to make a donation in Jack's name, please make it to The Hospital for Sick Children. Thank You

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Your Daddy and I

Hi Mr. Twinkle Toes,
I was thinking this afternoon about your Daddy's and mine wedding day. It was so beautiful, and FUN. Daddy was so handsome all dressed up in a tuxedo, and I looked pretty good to if I do say so (though not as good as I looked with you in my belly)
I remember after the reception, Daddy and I stopped at Tim Hortons to get a coffee and hot chocolate for the drive to Niagra Falls, and you should have see the looks... Daddy in his tux, me in my wedding dress... Needless to say we got free coffee! We had so much fun. You know, I sure do love that Daddy of yours. Forever and ever and always.
I love you to the moon and back
Love Momma

Mariposa

Hi Jack

As you already know this weekend is the Mariposa Folk Festival, I say you know becasue they hold it at your special place , so I know your dancing around to the music and playing with the other children. From the moment we found out that Momma had you growing inside of her belly one of my first thoughts was that I couldn't wait to take you to the festival and enjoy the music and play with everyone (and of course show you off), I had seen everyone else bring their babies and I wanted so much for you to come with us also. Well it was not meant to be, and I just couldn't bring myself to go this year, but I know that you are out there enjoying it for both of us.


Thanks Buddy



This is not for you Buddy, but for everyone else:



You know, unless you have had your only child die in your arms , or you watch the woman you love wonder what she did wrong and blame herself day after day after day, you have no clue what Karen and I are going through. We might miss a couple of Birthdays or anniversaries for the next little while, so be it.



Joe



Thanks Buddy



Love Dad

Friday, July 07, 2006

Good Morning Sunshine

Hi Baby Boy, I hope you are enjoying the morning sun. Daddy was right...the flowers are looking beautiful. The morning glories are getting so big, and I saw the first few peppers on Daddys plants, won't he be excited? I'll make sure to give all the flowers a good water tonight, and if I know you, you'd be dancing in the mud puddles (thats my boy )
I love you Mr. Twinkle Toes
Love Momma

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Another Sunrise

Morning Buddy

Well it's another sunrise this morning, I got up a bit earlier than I usually do so I though I would leave you a quick note. I didn't get a good sleep last night , and I think your Momma was up late also. I think your Momma is going going through a delayed greiving period right now, just because when you first past away we were both in shock and I don't think she really grieved for you, now she's really missing you and I am trying everything in my power to help her, but I think she just has to go through this and then she can get on with her life. If you could just show her that she does many important things, that she is a amazing wife and she was a beautiful and caring Momma that would mean alot to me.


I love your momma so much it hurts.



Take Care Jack and remember I will always love you



Dad

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

3 things

Hi Mr. Twinkle Toes, I've been thinking about all the things I wish I could have told you when you were with me... all I had time for, and all I could think of was to tell you about thunder storms, but there is so much more.
The 3 most special presents from your Daddy ~You ~perfume ~silk scarf ~ and equally tied are my engagement ring and wedding band (Ok I know thats 4)
my 3 favourite cd's ~mixed up, by the Cure ~Dirty, by Sonic Youth and ~Downward Sprial, by Nine Inch Nails ok a 4th would be ~ Blood Sugar Sex Magic, by the Chili Peppers.
3 favourite colors, ~Brown, Green, Blue
3 favourite animals, ~Cat, Hamster, fish (thats what we have now too)
Ok, here's where I run into trouble, I don't know how to pick a favourite sunset, or sunrise, but it is so much fun to stay up all night and watch the first morning glow in the sky, before sunrise, theres nothing more fun than sitting around a campfire with your best friends at sunset when it starts getting cool. Daddy and I would have taken you camping, just like we both did when we were kids... So much to say Baby Boy, but I'm so tired.
I love you to the moon and back
Love Momma

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Fireworks

Hi Baby Boy,
I sure do miss you. I look at your beautiful picture and just want to reach in and pick you up. I get so mad that I can't do that. I've been thinking a lot today about fireworks. I wonder if you watched them on Canada Day, and if you'll see them tonight when all our friends celebrate the 4th of July... I wonder if you're like me, and love the sparklers, and bright colours. On Canada Day Daddy and I stood outside and watched the colours in the sky and thought of you dancing around all the sparkles.
I love you so much Mr. Twinkle Toes.
Love Momma

Monday, July 03, 2006

You've got my back...

Hi Baaby Boy, How are you this afternoon? Thank you for being with me today. I know you had my back at work... I knew when it started raining really hard that you were there to get me through. It went well, I got to do a lot of reading, getting to remember what I did before. It was nice to see some people I know too, and as soon as I finished, there was your Daddy to pick me up, that sure meant a lot. I think I'll be a little more overwhelmed my first few days when I get back on the phones, but I'll work my up to that. Thank you so much Mr. Twinkle Toes, for being with me, and there were a lot of people out there thinking of me too, so thank you to all of you, you know who you are. I love you to the moon and back
Love Momma

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Talk

Hey Buddy



Glad we had that talk today out at your spot, I know your gonna help your Momma get through her 1st few days back at work. Here's a couple of pictures of the bubbles that were blowing around in the wind this afternoon.





Well thanks again Jack




Love



Dad

Big Day Tomorrow

Hi Baby Boy, Did you see us all at the park today? Grandma and Grandpa W were up for lunch and we went out to your spot. Even Grandpa W. blew lots of bubbles for you. They flew all over the grass by the trees, you must have been running free today Mr. Twinkle Toes.
I'm pretty nervous, and my stomach hurts... I go back to work tomorrow... I know everything will be Ok, I start part time for 2 weeks, and I am going to have retraining to help... so I'll see how it goes. I fully expect to be really overwhelmed and freaked out the first few days, but I liked my job before I left, so I hope I can pick up where I left off.
I love you so much, please be with me tomorrow Baby Boy.
Love Momma